Something inside of me shifted. I just knew I wanted to help people. This was so unlike me, I always felt overwhelmed by life. But there was a spark firing off in my heart. I could feel the position of my heart changing. A new perspective was birthing. I was searching for ways I could help.
Because I felt a deep gratitude that Jesus had paid it all for me, I believed I should start paying it forward. It seemed right. However, I often felt anxious serving. I seemed out of place. I didn’t want to be seen or talked to. I just wanted to do what I was there to do and leave. My hands and feet were operating but something was missing. The missing component was love. The truth is, I did not have my running feet yet. But God had my ear. He was revealing His deep love for me.
This experience reminds me of 1 John 4:7-21. The “God is Love” chapter. It talks about knowing God as love, experiencing Him as love. God’s love is a course correction for the soul. It is a heart transplant that allows us to tune in to God’s heart for people. The love of God allows wholeness to take root and healing to grow. It has brought a security into my life that I can only explain by saying “God loves me”. That security has given me the confidence to pour into others. I now serve in confidence. And this is the confidence that I have: that what I have experienced is what others can experience too. I love because God first loved me. (1 John 4:19)
The love of God is a key component to our serving God. God is love. We are supposed to be acquainted with His love. The Amplified Study Bible says that “…everyone who loves [others] is born of God and knows God [through personal experience]. The one who does not love has not become acquainted with God [does not and never did know Him], for God is love. [He is the originator of love, and it is an enduring attribute of His nature.] (1 John 4:8 ) What is opposed to love? Fear. If fear is the driving force behind our works or lack of works, we don’t have love. The Amplified Bible says “There is no fear in love [dread does not exist]. But perfect (complete, full-grown) love drives out fear, because fear involves [the expectation of divine] punishment, so the one who is afraid [of God’s judgement] is not perfected in love [has not grown into a sufficient understanding of God’s love]. (1 John 4:18)
There is a purpose to the pursuit of knowing God’s love. Because God’s love is perfect, it casts out our fear. The knowledge of God’s love plucks the ailments of our soul that choke out good fruit. This is done by pursuing and receiving the love of God. Believe His love over your circumstances, over your fear. Walk toward His love so that you can love. As a result, you will serve and bear much fruit.